Holiday Blues

Yep, everyone seemed to be crazy happy – in the pink of health, loving relationships, happy family get-togethers, plenty of money, enjoying their life … no worries at all. 

Then there was me. My picture didn't look like their picture. In fact, my picture didn't look the way the picture is supposed to look. Hence a little blue, a little down, a little depressed – odd man out from the rest of the world.

I know better. Rationally. But underneath, I felt separate from the rest of the world. My mindtalk said I was not like everyone else. I'm missing something that everyone else seems to have. It focused on what I lack, comparing my lack to what others have.

I knew how to get out of my funk, but I didn't want to. So I pig-wallowed in that mud for a day, feeling sorry for myself. Sheesh! Eventually I bottomed out, and the "positive power of being fed up" finally got a grasp on my psyche.

As my mentor, Dr. Brad Brown once said, "Comparing yourself, either upwards or downwards, to anyone, about anything, is a slippery slope to hell." So I quit comparing. Looking down on my life from a higher perspective, taking in the whole picture, I wouldn't change a thing. However, knowing how Life operates, I'm sure change isn't too far away.  AND, right now, I'm grateful for all that has brought me to this point in my life. (I am determined to be more watchful for my mind's comparing game. ick)