Discernment – Awakening #2

Scene: After a 5-day workshop, Clare Vivian-Neal (my co-leader) was all energized and raring to go. I was pooped (17 year age difference). She suggested going to downtown Suva for a celebratory meal. I said OK.

A few minutes later, I noticed I was mad. Weird. Truly I didn’t know what was going on. So I did a little digging, went back to the moment that I got mad (that I hadn't noticed at the time). The lifeshock was Clare’s bright-eyed suggestion, to which I said Yes – when I didn't really want to go. So I was mad at myself for not even checking to see if that was a fit for me. I didn’t want to go to the effort of getting a cab, deciding on a restaurant, etc. I wanted to recuperate from being so intensively *on* for five full days.

The discernment:  If I’m bone-tired, flat out of gas, I can usually count on myself to set appropriate
limits. However, if I’m in the pre-bone-tired stage, I am more likely to have just enough energy to keep going, and not check in with myself to see if it’s the healthiest choice.

The new intention: pay more attention to my body – it truly knows.

PS  As it turned out, we went out with friends, were chauffeured, ate delicious home-cooked Indian food (a personal fave), were thoroughly entertained and had a wonderful time.