Resentment, Forgiveness
There have been times, while professing to be forgiving, saying all the right words, in which my subtext sounded a tinge like this, "I, in my magnanimous Bigness, forgive you, you undeserving scumbag." Ego-saturated, sanctimonious, toxic, trying to look good. True forgiveness of others is superficial at best, unless I can first own how I used... Learn More
Resentment, Letting It Go
The ego will object strenuously to the whole notion of asking for forgiveness, citing the loss of face/power/rightness/superiority and the fear of being exposed as less than/weak/bad. Then there is the fear that what I have assumed was right(eous), really isn't … which calls into question my whole life. What else am I believing is... Learn More
Resentment – Getting Clean
I feel unclean when I have resentment. My jaw clenches, my torso is tight, and I just feel mean – meanspirited, mean-bodied. And when I say spiteful things, I can sometimes actually taste the bitterness at the back of my tongue. That's the first part – catching the symptomology of resentment, feeling spiritually tainted, being... Learn More
Resentment – the (true) downside
Yes, the short-term gratification of resentment seems delicious; except that, beneath my "sniping, sabotaging, self-righteous gloating, not taking responsibility for my own quality of life" is a low-frequency shame that runs beneath the surface of my consciousness. It knows that my acting like a bully, martyr, victim, manipulative spoiled brat is a betrayal of the... Learn More
Resentment – the (perceived) upside
According to Wikipedia, resentment is the experience of a negative emotion felt as a result of a real or imagined wrong, synonymous with anger or spite. All that's needed to warrant my resentment is for my expectations not be be met. Sometimes *you* don't know what I expect, because I've not told you. And I've not told... Learn More
Blind Spots and Outlooks at War (Resentment)
When my blind spot doesn't respect your outlook, I feel justified to treat you any way I want. I can write you off in a million different ways – from simply not listening to you to literally killing you, and everything in between. The current National Domestic Violence Statistics state that 4 women and 3... Learn More